Hope must break you
Posted on 13 Mar 2007
I felt something leading worship this week. It had been awhile, too long. It wasn’t out of a specific revelation or lyric or what have you–I can’t say why. The feeling faded, as elation tends to do, and then mere hours later I was back home, curled on the floor railing against God for yet another glimpse and another cloud. I used to despise the cloud, but now I wonder if the one who occasionally lets light in is the one I hate most.
&pleasepickupthephone
“What Were the Chances“
amanda
23 Mar 2007 (16:46)
“hope must break you”
these words are striking me.
jen.grabarczyk
30 Apr 2007 (04:22)
zadok, your last sentence has lingered in my mind for longer than quite awhile. every time i happen back to your site, i find this post and re-read those words. some days and nights i just want to not see anything beautiful so as not to stumble upon hope again…i’d rather just dash it all to a place that rhymes with bell. and then something breaks through that leaves me tossing and turning unable to sleep because it is just too remarkable…like a lightning storm that happens inside of my heart. and then it’s back to normal ordinary life…hoping desperately for another breakthrough. because if there isn’t…cynicism breaks loose and this cold heart triumphs for too long…